Like a nomad

Within a year, I feel like a nomad. Moved from one house to another  house. Bringing all the bloody heavy stuff made me sick. And of course, tiring too. Been kicked out really hurt, you know. But what else you can do..It's a life. Not every time you can enjoy your rainbow by having a cup of coffee on your table. Sometime it always heavy rain, thunderstorm and anything else that freak you out.

Almost a year I through this. Not so sure weather I am strong enough or still weak to go through this alone?

Now I am a Jedi! Fight like a Jedi

Lots of Love ;p Frouline Aging

Semaram Village _ Part I

XOXOXOXO

Under the trees

Red yellow drums

Pouring rain

Generator house

The yellow boots

The abundant drum

Lots of Love ;p Frouline Aging

The Gift

Taraaa....Introducing my new boyfriend, a gift from my husband..

I hate driving! That's why it takes a long time for me to decide to possess my own car. Am a "passenger" type person actually. Since we move to a new house, officially, I HAVE TO DRIVE! Whether I like it or not! And the same time, am not longer listening to any complaints from my husband (he tired of fetching me everyday)!


Lots of Love ;p Frouline Aging

MALAS

It's all about MALAS. De-motivation indeed. Soon gonna be public holidays and mood of MALAS hugs me all the time.

# MALAS to do my work
# MALAS to drive
# MALAS to socialize / hang out with my close friends (normally I love these things)
# MALAS to cook (owh? did I cooked? Nope! My husband always do it)
# MALAS to do laundry ( even more MALAS if I see so many dirty clothes to wash)

~Orchid do have fertilizer for MALAS. Do human get too?~

p/s: If we do MALAS for breathing, we know the ending...hihihihi

Lots of Love ;p Frouline Aging

A road to a new life (Part II)

A journey to my new life. Really blessed for what I have right now. Thanks God for the greatest gift you gave me. No words can describe how am feeling right now.












p/s: all pictures are courtesy from my friends' albums




Lots of Love ;pFrouline Aging

A road to a new life (Part I)

Now I can feel the heat. I realize I still have another 20 days to go before our wedding reception. Still mess up with everything. We just done with our venue & menu. Lots of things to be done. Our decoration, make up, wedding photos...Oh God! we just done with 10%. Really nuts! Both of us are last minute persons, so we don't have to blame each other. And the biggest worrying now is our invitation cards. We still doing nothing on it. Aduyaaiiiii....

Less than a month we plan for the reception. Actually we want a simple wedding ceremony, celebration with close friends and family. Just a week before the idea to have our grand reception came cross our minds. And we can evaluate the successful of the last minute preparation until of reception this coming month, whether it really successful or not.

Fortunately we have our wedding planner to manage everything.That's why we still have time to mingling around, laughing, spending our precious time together. Kerja giler, doh! Orang lain ke hulu ke hilir dok prepare, kite orang dok sibuk shopping benda yg bukan-bukan.

Will update you soon our preparation. Am tired + headache. Need to maintain my weight before the wedding. So sorry to myself recently, am allergic & my skin becomes rash and itch. So irritating.

Lots of Love ;pFrouline Aging

The Knot

Finally we make it! After many temptations in our relation. It's not easy for us actually to have this kind of relationship. We lost opportunity once before, this time we want to make it meaningful for ourselves, not for others.

~This relationship is from God willing and He bestowed the greatest gift for me~

Thanks God for His mercy. For the lost opportunity before, we learnt a lot from our mistakes. Our attitude, behaviors plus temptations from people surround make us realize then and everything seems mixing together in a big bowl of life. Now it's our turn to put some ingredients inside so we will make a good combination of our life...

p/s: I do believe that something happen for a good reason. I lost him once, then I learnt a lots from what God have done to me. He asked me to be more strong & grateful for the gift He gave me. But one thing for sure, God always answer my prayer for the patient I earned before.

Lots of Love ;pFrouline Aging

Just A Dream..

For the day dreamers.. Don't dream too much..It will destroy your mindset :p
Eat.Pray.Relax.Enjoy.

Looking for the right path

I'm heading to the North, to the West, to the South and to the East...
but now I'm caught in the middle..
Which path should i take?
and i'm wondering whether I'm on the right track or not...
Three months to go for the new beginning and for new chapter
I ask myself, whether my missions are accomplished?
Or am I still become a dreamer? Dreaming for something that I wouldn't know the result..
It's not easy for me to out from the comfort zone.. too many choices I have to take..
To play safe or to play risky??

A Letter to God

Dear God..
Thanks for the gifts you gave to me.. for the life I’ve been through along with my way I’ve been here for 27 years..
The trials you gave me, taught me life is not easy as you come along with me to be my guide. And you never failed reveal me, everything happened, there must be a reason lies behind
As your daughter, I always failed to recognize your bestow..the most greatest one and sometimes I lost my faith in you as I think you never wanted to hear my prayer and refuse to hear my heart..
And thanks God..for everything I have, my lovely family, my lovely friends, my career, my life..and last but not least, maybe someone I love most @ someone that I never thought whether he still needs me or not..
However God, do assist me along my journey…


Lots of love, from your daughter

A message from old friend..

A long conversation with my old best friend this afternoon really touching me enough. He was once I hate the most in our secondary school because of his big mouth. But, today I realized he changed much, or maybe because of he married and soon to becomes father..(congrate dude ). His advice makes me proud of having a good friend like you.
Everything you mentioned today is everything I have to confront. The reality of life, the challenges, I have to face off before they continue drowning me. Thanks, dude, for the advice. I’ll try myself to wake up that nothing gonna defeat me as I try to make myself believe in reality..and dude, I do really miss my old days, where nothing can make me fear off as I stand strong to be a part of me.

Feng-Shui Fever

I received this sort of notice for 5times today…

23 Years ago at the same month of AUGUST, it has 5 SUNDAYS, 5 MONDAYS and 5 TUESDAYS. Now it is happening again. Forward this message to 8 people you know and you will get money then_based on Chinese’ s feng-shui.


So funny, when some of my friends still influence by this belief, for thing we never knew it will come to reality. And the most funniest part for me, even miracle I never wanted to believe to be happened, why must I still believe for this non sense?? Remember, the luckiest & richest person will be telecommunication companies (for the SMSs we send and for the service rendered), not us!

Then I replied these to my friend (it doesn’t mean to insult him actually)..
“How many profit you earn for today? If you get RM1K today just to send it to 8 people, then I will send it to many people, not limited to 8 people”. He never replied me then, maybe he get mad on me @ he is busy of calculating his profit earn for today.LOL

Dear friends, please and please, never get yourself to be trapped in this kind of non-sense thing. Richness will not come without effort. Cheers!

The Death

It scares me enough and so many questions cross my mind..am I ready enough for it when my turn comes? Am I good follower to my God, confess my sins on all of my wrong done? Am I good daughter to my parents, serving them as a daughter should do? Am I good enough to be a sister to my siblings? How about my loving families, friends and others when I leave them?
Nothing on Earth would last forever, our turn will come, but we never knew when it is. But seldom of us realize we just temporary living here!
I realized when people I met and knew and even someone I love the most (my mom) left me rapidly..
Today, my former colleague, (before was my officemate who died of cancer) both gone, within a week!
Oh God, I do really scare of it! I do still need your guide in my path.

A Proverb!

Tagalong proverb: kung pukulin ng bato, tinapay ang iganti mo
~ If someone throws stone at you, throw back bread!~

Hmmm…this one taken from my best friend’s page, but I didn’t agreed enough with her. As I replied, why not we just throw back stone to her as well? And her advice to me (as usual). It’s not good Frouline to do the same thing, seems like you took the revenge.

That’s the reality of life actually. Hard for us to find someone who really sincere to you if you not aware of them! I experienced it before with one of my friends! I thought she can be the one of my best buddies, without knowing what she did for me actually for a reason lies behind. And my blunder, I put on all my trust on her, sharing everything that best friends should do, but she betrayed me! And now, seems like everything is in vain. (HAMPEH)!

Dear God, guide me from this revenge. Put your love in me, and may I never failed to love you more every day, not just today! Free up my mind from doing something that could destroy myself. Let set it free, free from my misery..

A Month of Celebration!

Congratulation to my best buddies, Hayati Juki & Mary Chimi. This month really meaningful for them as they will getting married. Sorry guys for unable to attend your wedding. I do still remember our promise to attend any wedding between of us, but seems that I’m the one who is unable to attend your big days! So sorry guys, for breaking the promises we made. That’s why I hate keep promising for something I would not know whether I’ll do it or not. Because between three of us, I always making “a great excuse and escape”. Remember, I always made a great excuse when I feel lazy to attend class neither in the morning nor in the afternoon? Or making an excuse when time due to submit our group assignment, I will be the last minute person to submit and trouble both of you to do last minute edit works! Haha. So horrible am I. Only the prayer I can do it for both of you. May all the happiness will always be with both of you, my dear friends, and making a great friendship for us and I am so happy for both of you. Cheers! Lots of love from me, your best friend!

Cry it out!

How great and how strength you are, you will be feeling down one day. You could say you’re the most powerful person in this world. But you will never knew, when the day would come.
A true story about my friend...she so proud of herself until she neglected others and like to condemn others because she always says, she is a great woman, no one can retain her and she say, and she can survive without others. She reminds me once; never let your tears drop for something unreasonable.
Yesterday may be the worst day for her. Finally she cried! She cried! And I was shocked when she cried for something unreasonable (she did mention this unreasonable thing to cry for me before)!
The best advice I was able to tell her..”cry it out, you may cry it out. Forget about your pride, forget about your dignity. You deserve to cry, may be you think it is suck, but it is worth to do so.
And the lesson I got from this, you will go nowhere if you always think you are the greatest one. What goes around will come around!Appreciate things around you and never let them went away. Never take everything for granted. You have to keep them as a part of yours!

A life to be Simplified!

Gawai Festival is just around the corner. But this year, I prepared nothing for it. It doesn’t mean anything for me as my mom just left me. I admit every festival, I depend much on my mom to prepare everything..Cakes, biscuits, tuak.. The only thing I know was to give some budget to her to spend for every festival. Seems like this year I have to take over her duty..so sad! Luckily I still have sisters to help me out

Actually I want to share some tips I get from an article I read; “Surviving Grief During the Holiday Season”, especially when you lost your parent and how to cope it during festival. It's so interesting to share with others (for those who experienced a loss of parent like me!)

No. 1: Offer yourself some grass
- remember, you are not alone! You still have love one around you
No.2: Be kind to yourself
- get rest and nourishment and don’t take on any more you can handle
No. 3: Ask for and accept help
- get other (your close one) to get through even sometimes you think you will trouble them
No. 4: Find support
- sharing with others, find people to talk with, then free up your mind


And last one, I like MOST:


REMEMBER THAT YOU WILL SURVIVE
- Life must go on, no matter how hard it is. Pray to God for to get the best part. It doesn’t mean the end of the world!

p/s: one day we will leave this world..we will leave our love one, our life, our dreams in this world..remember.. Life is so wonderful to regret...people come and go, you have to admit it!

A New Born

Every married partners will always wishing of having a great family, life with their own children. And the most precious gift from God is a child! How wonderful a life of a woman when she is able to bear a child!!
A big congrats to my cousin for her new born, the most cutest niece I ever had! (waiting for my turn then, but never knew when I'll have this opportunity to become a mother to my children..:)




How innocent she is! I love her so much & fall in love at the first sight!





Try to feed her..




******her aunt..always wanted to show off..hehehe****

Just Be Yourself

Someone people tend to be others, not herself because she wants everything is great about herself. But, bear in your mind.. Are you happy enough in your "fake" personality? You are trying to be others rather than be yourself. Sometimes you may camouflage your personality when circumstance need you to do so. Later you have to rectify your camouflage.
I have a friend, who have conflict in his personality. But i do love his personality much, he never pretended to be others. He is so honest and proud of himself. That's why i'm proud of him, because his sincerity to be himself!!
So, be what you wanted to be, because life can camouflage you if you are unable to be yourself!!