No Escape

I thought I can escape.... What a sigh...really frustrating! Today I was assign to another portfolio, leaving my old one. So scary actually, I still hope I can be out of this "golden cage" when there is no love left for this place.

~sometimes i feel want to jump out from my window, but am scare of height~

Dear God, I need your miracle & accompany me. Am fed up already but am still blessed to have this job.

Lots of Love ;pFrouline Aging

De-motivational Week

Still feeling upset & demotivational! Frustrated to working environment, people around, things around and etc.

I received a message from someone this morning;

"Good Morning. Have a nice day & happy working"

One thing cross on my mind, "am I really enjoy my day and happy with my job as I did before?". I wish one day I could out from this 'cage'

p/s: I plan to have another vacation where I can enjoy myself for a while :) where I could re-gain my faith, hope & love (love of being myself)

Lots of Love ;pFrouline Aging

For the Mercy to Come

May God bless HER spirit, body & soul for the peace of mind.. May she finds the mercy lies within her heart.

credit to Abang Long for the pic!

Open up your heart..let it blossom like a vase of flowers decorating an empty wall

The toughest day in my life, when my dignity is denied over a little mistake I made..for a little mistake, she put me in trial! A trial without a bail!! How cruel she is.

Bad Habits to be Inherited

Today i got too many complaints about me. One from my buddy & he said:

Frou, cuba la cakap elok2 sikit & lembut sikit. nie tak, suke cakap kasar

For information, I don't talk "lemah lembut gemalai ke aper" naturally I don't talk lemah lembut, ok.

Another situation, while I was checking for the letters & mumbling for the tying error done by a pal (time ni aku jd cikgu sekejap);

Me: nie taip x pakai otak ker aper? berapa kali aku nk check & amend semua surat nie??Simple instruction pn x paham.%$%^#&$&!&&#98...

That's me. I'm very particular & strict in accomplishing my task, even a little mistake I can't stop myself from keep mumbling and mumbling (this habit I inherited from my late mom)

Sigh..sigh..i try to improve myself because nobody is perfect actually & try to put some of my weaknesses into rubbish bin, but still I can't.

Breaking The Silence

_photo by: Shark Keyz_(thanks ya)


This silence really kills me enough..when I don't have opportunity to voice out what I really wanted to say. Like I was put on detention without trial, no rights to defense me. My rights were denied, and I was continuously be blamed.
It comes to worse when a man tries to be a judge, but he did not have a knowledge on it, judging me without consider my defense. Why must keep silence if reality yet to be discovered? Nothing to hide, the best thing is to confront the reality, not running from the reality, ya! Sometimes, some words are best unspoken, but I'm telling you, they will kill you slowly.. :)